As the one year anniversary of mine and my father's surgery draws closer, I find myself worrying about what my tests results will show. There's no real reason for me to believe they will be negative, but I think that worry is always there somewhere in the back of my mind. I am trying to take good care of myself, eating the right things and excercising. Although recently my schedule has been erratic so my excercise regime has taken a back seat. I know, I know smarten up go for your walks every day, and I do try, but there are days when I am so exhausted from work, and also from fixing up our home, that I just can't do it. I am excited about halloween, it is one of my favorite seasons. Seeing all the little children hobbling up my stairs to get that handful of candy, that bag of chips, or, my favorite treat to give out, a mini sip. It is expensive for us though, we get hundreds of children at our home and so we have to be very prepared, oh yes I always end up with extra left over because I'm overly prepared, but then we get to snack on whatever is left over so it's a treat for us. Dressing up as something your not, that's pretty exciting. I've always been fairly shy, but on halloween, when I could be someone or something else, I didn't have to be shy. I think that's why it was so fun for me. And now that I'm older, I find joy in watching other children experience that feeling of excitement. So my first Halloween after the surgery, coupled with the nervousness of my upcoming checkup, it's quite a time. But I'm sure everything will turn out well, I'll keep you posted!!